When I
first told Reggie about my visit with Sean, he laughed.
I sat in
the conference room, watching him fill a cup with coffee. By the time he sat
down next to me, he’d grown serious.
“You
sure that was Sean?” he asked. “Doesn’t sound like him.”
I rolled
my eyes at him. “Am I sure it was Sean? Really?”
“Okay,
okay.” He took a drink. “Never seen him run from anything before.”
“You
talked to him,” I said. “What’d you say?”
“I said
you’re an ax murderer.”
My
eyeballs were getting a lot of exercise. “What’d you really say?”
“I told
him who you are, is all. What’d you do?”
“I waved
an ax at him,” I said. “I guess I can’t really blame him. If some strange
woman appeared outside my door and said she was from the past, I’d lock the
door, too.”
“Yeah,
but I told him you’re okay,” Reggie said. “There’s got to be something else.”
He took
another drink.
I
thought back to the conversation, trying to remember when Sean seemed to get
scared.
“I told
him I’m your friend, then I told him to call you …” I was thinking out loud.
“What’d
you say after he talked to me?” Reggie asked.
“I don’t
remember. Uh, something about people in 2015 knowing him.”
“Huh.”
He took another drink.
“Wait a
minute,” I said. “Maybe that’s it! I said people in 2015 knew him and they might
think he was fictional. What if he thinks they don’t think he’s fictional?”
When I
get excited, I tend to bundle a lot of words together and fling them outward
all at the same time. It makes me spend a lot of time rewriting, but that’s
when I’m writing—it’s a little hard to rewrite what I say.
Reggie
looked puzzled. “What?”
“He
thinks people are reading about him,” I explained. “That’s got to be
intimidating, right?”
“But
what about during his trial? Everybody
was reading about him then.”
“Oh.”
This was enough to deflate my theory.
“Listen,
you know him better than anybody,” Reggie said. “Keep thinking.”
It’s not
easy being a writer. (Wait, it’s never
easy? Okay, sometimes when the words are flowing, maybe. Other times, not so
much. But I still love it.)
I sat
back in my chair, thinking about all the articles written about Sean at the
time. I guess that wouldn’t be fun, having your name plastered all over the
place followed by the words “criminal” or “smuggler” or “convicted.”
Yet that
hadn’t affected Sean. He’d been himself when he met the crew, not bitter or
ready to slam a door in their faces. And now it was done …
“Okay,”
I said.
“I
figured you’d get it,” Reggie said.
I
nodded. “And you got it a long time ago.”
Reggie
shrugged.
“He
thought he put all of that behind him,” I said. “And those articles were just
about superficial stuff, not the real Sean. He reads fiction: he knows what a
writer can do, digging around in a character’s head all the time. So I’m
bringing back the past and revealing
more about him than he might want to have known.”
I wanted
to find Sean and apologize to him.
“I’m not
really evil,” I said. “Am I?”
Reggie
laughed. “Nah. Don’t worry, he’ll get over it.”
I hope
he’s right.
(Happy Easter.)